Saturday, January 4, 2014

A new perspective...

Parenting is hard.  Parenting kids with special needs due to trauma and neglect  is really hard.  Parenting kids with reactive attachment disorder, ADHD, oppositional defiant disorder, PTSD, pervasive developmental disorder is difficult.  I can't do it alone.  I've read books and read books and prayed about it and prayed about it.  I love my kids and will never give up.  Some days are very draining and difficult.  Lots of behavior problems.  Lots of learning problems.  I felt God telling me a few months ago to keep bringing it to Him in prayer and He will guide me.  I don't have to do everything that the books say to do...I can't physically do it all.  However, I can trust God with my burdens and teach my children His ways, and He will work in their lives as well as in mine.  What a relief!!  So often, I try to do it myself when I just can't.  I can't make them change their ways...but God can open their hearts and work in their life if I just pray with them over certain issues and show them in scripture what God says about certain things.  So glad that we have a God that sees our hearts and can work in our lives.  Trying to make God the first priority in every day for all of us.  That is my habit that I really want to instill in all of us this year along with gratitude.  Even in the hard times, I am so greatful for my family.  I love each one of them and hope for the best for each one.  I want to be the best wife and Mom that I can be as well, but I need God to help me along the way...and to fill in those voids when I am drained and empty.  Thank you, God for being there for each one of us and for working in all of us.